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How many years has it been... I've been gone for so long, making empty promises, and sad stories for 3 years now.

Cancer took over my spirit and I fell down into the deepest pits of despair. No matter what I said, I never actually did anything. I was lost, trapped in a perpetual loop of despair that I could not escape... Until now.

For the first time in centuries, I have picked up my pencil, realized that I didn't need the pencil, dusted off my art equipment, and began drawing something I have never done before.

And it's all thanks to my supporters through the dark times, and my best friends for teaching me the values of my self and others around me.

Merry Christmas, and thank everyone for being here for me. I am giving everyone a Chirstmas present this year, and I hope you like my first real drawing for the years to come! Have a wonderful holiday, and I am blessed to have everyone around me!

Thank you all... I mean it... Please head to https://www.deviantart.com/ignitethepower/ if you want to see more art!

Christmas Special III
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I honestly thought the end for me was 6 months ago when I announced that I won't be contactable. I removed my contact information and I thought after that, I was gone forever. I want to share a bit of a back story to tell you why this happened. Back in December of 2018, I was starting to recover from a lasting heartbreak from early 2017. I made a promise to myself that next year was going to be a big year with much content and projects to work on. And so I began to draw a few things and plan up a new rewrite to my story Summer Twilight. I didn't know that 2019 was going to be the year that I will never forget because of it's tragedy. Around early 2019 was when I was diagnosed with cancer. Things were already going bad because I was starting to lose friends because of the way I was. When I was sent to the emergency room because of this two times, I basically stopped everything and I honestly felt like I was going to die. Over time, my inactivity chased a lot of my friends away, and soon the only support I had was the few people in my server, you guys, and My two closest friends who could only listen to me cry everyday. This was around the time I ended my discord server and abandoned mostly everything I did like my DeviantArt page. I lost my humble grandfather later that year. As if the pain I was experiencing couldn't get any worse, I had to grief for my grandfather who unfortunately passed away... About a month later however, my cousin was shot in the head by his girlfriend. I was at my worst being stuck to a bed because of the pain I was experiencing. When we heard the news, I just stopped. My family rushed to the emergency room, and I asked my family to take me with them; even if I was in immense pain. I've never felt so hopeless seeing my cousin in the bed. There was no chance the doctors could bring him back. When I got back, I layed in the bed softly crying to myself wishing for the nightmare I was experiencing to end. At that time, the only friends I had was Enderman_Of_D00M and my first best friend. It took me up to December 27th, 2019 to beat cancer. For the first time in many months, I was able to do anything I wanted; not being locked to the bed because of pain. But, all that was left of the past was the grief and hopelessness I felt during my battle. I still couldn't do anything, I was depressed and grieving still for my grandfather and my cousin. Over the years up to the beginning of 2021, I was losing my friend Ender for all the things I did to him and his friends while I was battling my depression. Around January was when my best friend Ender gave up trust on me. I couldn't handle the pain anymore and I decided to cut everything off, which was when I made the announcement here. Now July, he finally left me and only then was I finally finding support from my family and a few new friends. I am recovering from the depression I was stuck with and I finally accepted my grandfather and cousin's passing. What I will never forget was how many things I lost in the past, and how I couldn't live up to the person I wanted to be back in 2018. If you want to visit me and possibly watch me work on new things (Even if the progress is insanely slow atm), here is my Discord server you can join: https://discord.gg/trNQFjZ26w I'll never know if I could get somethings from the past back, but what I do know is I can start new things and create a better future for myself. I hope to return with a lot of content soon if at all possible for me, maybe even make some new friends and meet old friends again. Have a good day, and I apologize for my leave.

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Happy new years everyone!  This year was a big let down, but a small victory!  This new year will be my revolution!  I can feel it!  Unlike the previous years, I am happy to leave this year behind because this next year will be the turning point for me!  I hope to make a gigantic come back next year!  For now, let us celebrate for we all made it this far in life!  It's time to make 2019 our year!
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If you want to stay up to date with my content, then feel free to visit me on: :iconignitethepower:

I am going to make this account my secondary just in case, and this account will be my "personal" account.  Therefore, I am more likely to answer your questions and statements here.  IgniteThePower will be my main account where I will post all of my art and anything related to my projects.

Now to keep moving forward with MobTalker!
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Team Revolution

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Alright guys, I am looking for a team of people who want to see Mob Talker rise!  If you want to join my team, please note me so we can do this together!  Let's start a revolution!
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